What no one ever tells you

about your worst bout with whatever mental illness you’ve had

is you’ll put yourself back there

every. other. time. you struggle

forever.

Every time

you get oh so tired

or life’s bitter edge rubs sharp against you

or you just can’t crawl deep enough into the corner of the couch –

You will think,

here it comes again

it’s back

I’m falling down the rabbit hole once more.

And then, a flicker at the edge of your consciousness.

It’s midafternoon; you haven’t taken your meds

The sun hasn’t shone in days

A deep mood does not mean a depressive down swing.

But the feeling is so unsettlingly familiar

it sets off alarm bells

of a flame that once fueled an inferno

8 thoughts on “What no one ever tells you”

I can completely relate to this…

I empathize with the struggle. It’s vital to recognize signs early and prioritize self-care. Stay strong! 💪

Sense memory, yes. The brain finds it too easy to fire those existing neural pathways for efficiency, even when it doesn’t benefit us at all.

That is so true, I relate, in every way to what you wrote here! X

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