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Moving Day

On the year anniversary of our moving day, the family traveled to two of the fall festivals we missed last year because we were schlepping boxes.  Maybe because I’m a glutton for punishment and need to pack as much into a day as humanly possible (well, inhumanly, but I always did have unrealistic expectations) or maybe because I felt like I had to make up for time lost last year, we visited a farm open-house of sorts to celebrate their yearly press of apples for cider and then a local park arts-and-crafts-music-storytelling-farmers’ market-hayride-proceeds-benefitting-the-community-garden extravaganza.  It was the quintessential New England fall day.  The leaves and fields and skies just opened up in a beautiful way.  In a way that they can nearly anywhere, I suppose, but which seems to be happening more since we’ve moved.

Gourd neighbors

Gourd neighbors

I half expected Wayne Carini to come walking up

I half expected Wayne Carini to come walking up

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Beautiful buggers

Beautiful buggers

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The Zen of Buddy

No errands for me.  No languishing in stores simply because I’m sans kids and don’t have to hightail it out the door.  Not even a cup of joe to go.

The plan today was head straight home after preschool drop-off, brew a cup of tea, and write! 

There was the reflection I’d entered into my journal two nights ago to be expounded upon.  There was the humorous quip forming in my head that I must look good because it’s been two mornings now that another mother has oh-so-discreetly done the smile to full-body-scan maneuver.  Yes, the hem of my pants meets my shoes.  And yes, I wear shoes everyday.  Do you need a fashion report?  Urgh. 

Stuff, thoughts, words rattling – all waiting patiently for me to let them free.

Until, suddenly, a dog appeared on my horizon. 

As I turned the corner to my street, I spied a big black lab trotting down the side of the road.  I vaguely noticed something behind him and, maneuvering past another car coming the opposite direction, just assumed it was his owner trailing along.  Upon closer inspection, I realized the dog was all alone and dragging along some manner of brush.  Several families in our neighborhood have black labs and I did see a collar on him with a leash of some kind, so I figured he’d just gotten away on a walk.  I pulled to the side of the road to waylay him until his master came down the hill. 

Knowing the dog and I were strangers, I approached him slowly and talked in a friendly tone.  He was happy to come sniff my hand, but just as happy to root his nose around in the grass, bushes, dirt and sand around us.  Talking all the while to him about his predicament, I realized what I had thought was a leash was actually a lead, snapped right off its anchor in his yard, somewhere, and wrapped around what looked like a pine tree.  It was small mind you, as far as pine trees go, but a good size for a dog to be dragging around.  I still haven’t figured out if it was an actual tree or a good size limb and whether it had already been felled or if he’d snapped it right off in his furious escape. 

I also realized that his owner was not coming down the hill.  It was just me and Buddy, as I’d taken to calling him.  Great, I thought, he jumped his lead, his owners are at work (and therefore not looking for him), and I have no idea where he belongs.  I picked the first house I knew of that had a lab somewhat known for wandering.  Their cars were in the driveway!  Awesome! 

Before I reached the door, I heard the calling and whistling.  I couldn’t make out the name, but I knew it was Buddy’s master seeking him.  Good news.  Bad news.  The voice echoed through the woods behind the neighbor’s yard in which I stood, which meant it was from another dead-end street nearly a quarter-mile away.  To double-check my instincts and echolocation, I checked for Buddy’s identification. 

Buddy was Bruschi and he did live on that presumptive street. 

So Buddy/Bruschi and I set off, me coiling the plastic-covered wire around as many times as I could to rein him in and not get my hand cut off should he bolt, he happily and haplessly sniffing, peeing, bobbing, and weaving.  I kept telling Buddy/Bruschi that we could not dally, could he not hear his master?  He was worried about him.  I hurried as best I could to assuage his master’s fears.  I jogged as much as I could, Buddy/Bruschi excitedly keeping pace, but was glad after awhile for his pit stops.  Though, he eventually made so many to leave his mark, I highly doubt he had any pee left. 

I knew where Buddy/Bruschi’s street was, but wasn’t familiar with the house number.  I checked mailboxes as he sniffed.  Does this smell like home, Buddy?  I asked.  A man walking another dog approached and Buddy sped up.  Oh, great, I thought, is Buddy/Bruschi one of those dogs that mauls strange dogs he meets on the street?  I shortened the lead when the man started talking.

“Where did you find him?”

It took me a minute to realize this was Buddy/Bruschi’s owner.  Obviously overcome with worry and relief at his return, he’d skipped formalities and headed straight to questioning.  He was exasperatedly impressed with Buddy/Bruschi’s prowess at mowing down brush when I recounted how I’d found him.  He asked how I’d known to come to his street, I guess forgetting in his mania that he himself affixed the tags with his address to Buddy/Bruschi’s collar.  Good thing he’d thought of this precaution when he had a clear head.  Then he introduced himself, ‘by the way.’  And thanked me profusely. 

I removed my sweaty fleece and walked home, feeling like a good neighbor, a good citizen, able to problem solve and help others at the drop of hat – or pine bough, in this case. 

I was glad I didn’t have to jog this leg of the trip, but I found that I missed Buddy.  Maybe finding myself in the new situation of all three children in school at once has left me wanting someone to ramble on at incessantly.  I most definitely used my singsong mom-voice with Buddy.  It was nice to have someone to be responsible for, but who couldn’t talk back.  A fun-loving companion.  Someone to whom a roaming walk through the woods meant everything, every new smell a discovery, every moment a present (get it?).  Buddy was completely present in the moment, though.  I’m sure he heard his master calling, but if a mailbox suddenly presented itself, he was going to pee on it.  If there was road kill to be sniffed, it would be sniffed gosh darn it.  One thing at a time, people. 

When I picked up my youngest daughter at preschool a very short time later, I told her I’d made a doggy friend.  I want to make a doggy friend, she said.  Well maybe we’ll take a walk and meet Buddy someday, I said. 

You wouldn’t think meeting a dog determined for discovery this morning would make such an impression, but Buddy did. 

Just keep running, just keep running . . .

Just keep running, just keep running . . .

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Scenes from a Sun-kissed Morning

 

The days are warm enough, the nights cool enough that each morning my girls ask me if it’s rained. Caught in a ray of sunlight, the fog tricks you into thinking it’s misting, which it is, I suppose. The dew clings to every angular surface.

 

 

I feel like a studio photographer!

I feel like a studio photographer!

So delicate.  I love the texture of the buds and petals.

So delicate. I love the texture of the buds and petals.

 

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Scenes from a Secret Neighbor

Walking in a woodland wonderland . . .
I have woods! In my yard! And the woodland creatures that come with!

Quite a difference from our little suburban plot.

After a hurricane, a blizzard, the taking down of six trees, and the impending purchase of a wood stove, we’ve got lots of wood laying around. Lots to chop, split, stack, etc. In the meantime, the piles have become part of the landscape. So much so, that little friends have moved in. This little guy peeking out is going to be supremely pissed when we clear everything out!

Can you see me now?

Can you see me now?

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Neville

It starts with a colorless world.

The only color comes from the belongings he’s brought with him to this foreign land.

An unsanctioned move, an unfamiliar school, and unknown classmates, who most certainly won’t become friends.

This is the bleak landscape in which a young boy finds himself at the beginning of the picture book, Neville, by Norton Juster.

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At the beautifully gentle suggestion of his mother, he takes a walk down the street on the off chance of meeting someone.  Reaching the end of the block, he looks skyward and bellows a name.

Neville

Is this the name of a friend he’s left behind?  A pet who’s wandered off into this new neighborhood?

It’s unclear who he’s summoning, but first one, then a whole slew of children answer the call.  They all begin to seek out Neville without even knowing who he is.  Not exactly synchronized, but part of a collective effort to find this unknown friend.

“Hey, I don’t know anyone named Neville who lives around here.  Is he new?”

“I guess so,” the boy said uncertainly.  “Everyone has to be new sometimes, don’t they?”

The anxiously-sought-after Neville becomes a great source of curiosity, the children clamoring for information and hoping to meet him soon – though they’re pretty impressed with his friend, perhaps even more so than the mysteriously absent Neville.

Returning to his new house, it looks a little less bleak.  Closing his eyes that night, his mother wishes Neville goodnight.

The surprise reveal of Neville’s identity is a clever twist.  The entire book is a poignant look at the void a move can create; what is left behind is no longer accessible, but it’s unclear yet how to access the new resources available.  The tentative way Neville approaches it all is such a realistic depiction – for children and adults alike experiencing a move.  Readers will feel for Neville’s plight (even before we know it’s him), but not just because he’s a nervous kid; because he represents the ambiguity we all face when we experience a move.

We’ve all been tempted to raise our face to the sky and bellow our own name to see what comes back.

In the case of Neville, it’s all good.

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Contemplative Meandering

It is 8:52 AM and I am alone in my house.  I rush in with the usual sense of urgency, keys jangling, purse pulling on my arm, slouching the jacket off my shoulders and – what?

The light in the living room still has that early morning hush, shadows mixed with brilliant swathes of light.  But it’s not just the light that’s hushed.  The house is actually quiet.  No talk radio emanating from the alarm clock radio my husband usually leaves on.  No little voice accompanied by the thud of rubber-soled shoes in the middle of the floor.

The silence is deafening.

For the first time in, I don’t know, forever, I have two hours and 57 minutes to myself.

I could hand wash those clothes I’ve left languishing.  I could peel the shower curtain liner from its moldy seal on the bathtub and scrub it.  I could transfer summer to fall in my daughter’s clothes drawers without interruption.

Yes, those would all be worthy endeavors.  Useful.  Productive.  Jobs easier done without little people becking and calling.

But for the first time I am alone in my house for longer than five minutes, is that what I should do with my time?  It might be what I want to do, or feel I should do from some deep-seated guilt (Where does that come from anyway?  Heloise’s shadow people?), but I know it’s not what I need to do.  I need to decompress, to learn how to shut off these urgings when I actually do have time to myself.  It’s such a foreign concept, my mind and soul freeze up at the suggestion.

And while I do write even on days my lovelies are around, it’s always with one ear to the ground.  And one hand in the snack bin doling out goodies.  And half my attention elsewhere.  Either that, or I’m writing in such a small window that it is with a laser-like focus, barring out the kind of contemplative meanderings that we all need to do now and again.

So I’m contemplatively meandering.

That is a damn good goal in and of itself.  That could sum up an entire bucket list in two succinct words.

But aside from writing, I do not know how to do that.  I can feel the needle and thread pulling my hands.  I hear the chipmunk squeaking in the woodpile.  Even the mold growing and multiplying.

I may not achieve the ultimate level of transcendence today, but there is the desire.  That is worth something, right?

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Seaside Scenes from September 17

As I walked onto the beach, the sand and sea elicited the same feeling in me that it did years ago on a shore many miles away.  The calm, the awe, the inspiration.  I could dig out the essay I’d written that day, but I dare say it’d be the same today (though hopefully a bit more linguistically advanced!).

Sometimes it’s nice when place and sense take us down a familiar path.

Block Island, full speed ahead.

Block Island, full speed ahead.

A ribbon of sea and sand

A ribbon of sea and sand

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Rose hips and tide rips

Rose hips

 

 

Tides of rip . . .

Tides of rip . . .

Gifts from the sea

 

 

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