It’s easy to ignore when it creeps up on you,
increasing slowly, by small degrees
Or not even ignore –
just not even notice
the paranoia that maybe you’re not cool enough to hang
the resentment for the life you do not have
the loneliness
the inability to relax
the overwhelm over everyday things:
shopping, showering, getting out the door
Just not feeling
talking, going, doing –
it
Until one day it’s suddenly all you can see,
all you can feel
And you have to deal with it all at once
Chopping Potatoes 
Sounds like some I know and love.
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I hear you. And I understand. And I’m grateful you put it out there much more eloquently and intelligently than I could.
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Thank you – for your kind words and more importantly for understanding. It sucks.
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It sucks so much.
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